the beauty shines through.

It's been an insanely long and crazy week. JC has been pretty complicated so far, not just in the academic sense, but also in every other aspect of life that doesn't have to do with production possibility curves or iodine thiosulfate solutions. Tiring would definitely be one way to put it I guess. All the sleep deprivation has been weighing heavily on me and the fact that tutorials and notes are piling up at a shocking pace isn't helping much. But I guess fate has been on my side, and I really wouldn't have things any other way. 

Youth Got Heart yesterday made me all the more happy that I joined Raffles Interact. Maybe talking about SPCA all day wasn't the most interesting or the most enlightening, but I got to know so many people in the process and I really hope that I'll get to know them better in time to come. As it is, in this ever-so-complicated JC world, all of us have way too many good friends, but too few close ones.

I met becky's sister at the grace orchard school booth yesterday! I almost fainted from the shock, and couldn't calm down afterwards. I asked her about becky (naturally), and she said becky doesn't exactly reply her emails much either, which is a relief haha. Oh yes and the best part was that she said becky might come back in the summer, which got me excited all over again.

I am a tree, 

Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy

concealing your insecurities,

I think I need more happy things to look forward to.

On a sidenote, every time I walk into the RJ canteen, it feels as though I have to try very hard to find a familiar face in the crowd, which is terrible if you ask me. But lots of cool stuff have been happening when I least I expect them to, and I'm very grateful for these little blessings. I know I have so much to be happy about, yet there's this dark spot in life that doesn't ever seem to get enough sunshine no matter which direction the sun comes in from. Life's pretty weird I guess.

Next week shall be a good week. And I really have to learn to keep promises, I haven't been emailing becky again rawr.

celebrating the people,

First of all, thank you for today, becky kwan; I really couldn't have done it without you. And I guess I said the right things yeah? :) Thank you thank you thank you, I really can't thank you enough for everything you have taught me so far friend. I am really so glad I have you as a friend, although it took so long haha, and I promise an email will come your way soon.

Happy birthday my dear sister vernis goh shimin. I forgive you for annoying me so much hahaha. And you lucky girl, why is your birthday on valentine's! I have seen you through the past thirteen years of your life so I think I know almost everything about you. Almost. <3 <3

And lastly, happy valentine's day everyone! For everyone who's ever been in my life, whatever role it may be, I'm thankful to have met you and to have known you. Love you guys!

take it in stride

Sometimes it gets worse before it gets better
And it takes so much to be brave
Sometimes it feels like forever
But when all the lights begin to fade

When the sky's the darkest,
You can see the stars.
And when you fall the hardest,
You find how strong you are.

I think I'm in a nice class. I don't exactly feel natural around the people just yet, but hopefully that will change in time. :) I talked to jazzy today and I really miss her and her craziness. Anyway, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT TAYLOR SWIFT WAS IN SINGAPORE JUST YESTERDAY!!


TAKE 5's tomorrow; it's gonna be so exciting! :D

lone ships on the wide open sea

I thought this quote was really cool because the person who said it's called Sandra Carey hahaha. Sandra and Carey should feel honoured. <3



We're all caught in the currents.

Bring it on.

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

- What Faith Can Do by Kutless


Stepping into uncharted territories tomorrow. I guess I'm partly excited. But mostly scared out of my wits. This is where full-blown JC life commences. Here comes the rest of our lives.

a toast to the future.

Somehow nothing's changed, yet everything feels somewhat different. Maybe I'm just not one for unpredictability. I'm so scared of the future, not the way too far off, ten-years-down-the-road future, but the near future, the one that will be made a reality in a few weeks. I guess the best way to live life is not always to look too far ahead because reality isn't something that lets you shy away from it. It doesn't matter whether you tackle it head-on or not, because it's still gonna be there. And your choices will probably change what the future holds, which is the scariest part of it all. It's like what's depicted in all those TV shows: One wrong move and you're a goner. I'm scaring myself haha.

So now that the excitement from orientation is starting to wind down a bit (not the spirit though!), I'm definitely missing yearmates and friends a lot, but at the same time learning to welcome new people into my life and (Well, yes) expanding my social circle. With great emphasis on 'learning' hahaha, I'm still not very good at it. Maybe there'll never be another RGSRCY in my life again, but I sure as hell hope that there'll be something as good as it. MR will never be the same as richard and house comm but different isn't always bad.  And I'm sure everyone will find something they fit in seamlessly to eventually; it's just a matter of time. There's always a place for everyone, don't you ever forget that friends <3

And I miss becky kwan a lot a lot, if only I could fly to boston for one day and back. And maybe bring her bakkwa and pineapple tarts, seeing that there are no such wonderful stuff there hehe. Wishful thinking. You know I'm actually emailing her regularly now this is amazing. <3

Oh lingzhi you know I watched the yale video again for the first time since the last time we watched it last year, DO YOU REMEMBER!! :D SAM TSUI (Y) (Y) 

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while;

the Strength from within.

Orientation was really something I'll never forget for a lifetime, I swear. The past few days have flown by pretty darn fast, not very much to my liking, but I guess it just means we were all having so much fun we didn't notice time slipping by. I doubt any of us wanted it to end, but I guess it's just not up to us to decide these things. But although our D'elchanto journey has come to a close, I guess it's the spirit that matters most and it's this same spirit that will live on and remain with us forever. After all, the close of D'elchanto marks the start of even greater and better things to come. 

This wonderful, albeit short journey has proved to be one of the most awesome experiences I've ever had, and there's just so much I'll miss. Together We Will is on permanent replay in my head now, and will probably be for the next few days. The Batch Dance steps are still fresh in my mind and I doubt I'll be forgetting them anytime soon. OG dinners have become routine now and I really will miss screaming and laughing so hard at those dinners. And then there's Storyline, which everyone looked forward to so much; the characters were too cute.

But the people were definitely the best part of it all. The OGLs who did just so much for us; love them so much. And MR10! We battled the mud and the rain together as a group and made it through unscathed. <3 
Yes, D'elchanto will live on in every one of us.

the best days of your life;