you paint the sky a crimson red

I walked across the crowded street.
A sea of eyes, they cut through me.
And I saw you in the middle.
Your upset face, you wear it well.
You camouflage the way you feel,
When everything's the matter.

We've all been down that road before.
Searching for that something more.
World's spinning 'round.
There's no sign of slowing down.
So won't you take a breath?
Just take a breath.

People change and promises are broken.
Clouds can move and skies will be wide open.
Don't forget to take a breath.

Blink our eyes, life's rearranged.
To our surprise, it's still okay.
It's the way things happen.
Summer comes and then it goes.
Hold on tight, and brace for cold.
And it's only for a moment.

These lyrics kinda describe my thoughts right now. It's like just when you think everything's perfect for that split second, it slips right out of your hands. And leaves you to wonder whether it was just a figment of your imagination after all. You move on though. But following that, everything's just normal. Because you've seen that perfect moment for yourself and nothing after that can ever come close to it. But there are so many moments in life still worth remembering though. 

Yes, back to reality, currently I have about a thousand and one things to do, but then being the unmotivated little brat I am today, the only thing I feel like doing now is sleeping. Which is technically one of the things on my to-do list heh. Gotta study for the bio lecture test next week. AND complete math and chem tutorials. And refine gpp and all that too. AHHH you know, if only my life didn't revolve around such stuff all the time, I honestly think I would be a much happier person. Need some sorta escape right about now, seriously, before everything actually drives me insane. Hawaii is definitely out of the question. So is Antartica. Though I think I might actually enjoy Antartica seeing that the weather has been getting on my nerves so bad these past few days. Hmm or maybe I should pack myself in a crate like those animals in Madagascar and see where the ocean takes me. Okay okay fine I'm kidding, it'll never work, not in a million years.

I was reading through my old livejournal and it got me thinking about things the way they used to be. I remember there was a time last year when certain people were so obsessed with Yale and certain others were so obsessed with Harvard hahahaha. Those times feel like a million light years ago. WHY IS JC SO DIFFERENT D: It's like an entirely different world with entirely different people. Even I feel different. I think my brain needs more time to get a grip on things. I feel like I need to talk to lingzhi more, when I'm talking to her, it feels like it's back to old times again. 

yes, I believe.

and now our adrenaline's rushing,

Oh my, CTs are coming soon. If that's supposed to freak me out, it's doing a very good job. A better job than I'd like to admit actually. And if it's any comfort, june hols are fast approaching too. Seriously, things are happening way too fast for my poor incompetent mind to process. Just a year and a half more and we would be thrown defenseless into the real world, having to make tough decisions. Oh well, I can't say I'm looking forward much to that. Going off to uni is another issue altogether, something I thought about so much last year but haven't had the time to these days. Hmm I'm getting a little sidetracked by the future. For now, the present calls. 

Well, currently, I'm pretty much confused by everything that's been happening in my life such that my mind has been in this jumbled state for the longest time. I have a terrible tendency to overthink and over-analyse things and it's not doing much for my sanity. And to top it all off, I'm so exhausted. As far as I know, the worst feeling in the world now is wanting to sleep but not being able to. I suspect it's been messing up my body clock but oh well. Anyway, I've been thinking (Oh my I need to stop thinking so much) whether I'm actually happy with who I am. Okay wait I'm making myself sound incredibly weird here but I'm really not. It's just that I've been letting myself hide in people's shadows lately and I fear it's becoming second nature or something. Haha I just conjured up an image of a Cheshire cat. Don't get me wrong, I definitely do not creep up on people. I'm just scared that I might appear to be as fleeting as the Cheshire cat to people. 

Okay okay all this thinking has got to go. Sheesh I've been telling myself that like only a million times.

On to much happier stuff, I met lynn today and she happily told me that sports fest is on 27th may this year and just about persuaded me to go back for it. It made me think back to those happy richard days and the cheering and screaming and all. Miss it so much. On a sidenote, I should be scared for tomorrow. Or should I say, later today.

more than ever now.

♥. And I really, really mean it, I swear. 
Class camp was one awesome experience. It's amazing how much I learnt about everyone and how much my perception of everything has changed. Though the cabins were really disgusting and the roof leaked on us more than a few times, I guess if I had to choose between school and ophir, I would choose ophir any day. Waterfall scrambling and abseiling and everything more than made up for the horror of the cabins and the toilets. (Haha I can still distinctly picture the look on everyone's faces at the state of the toilets.) And it was definitely 3E that made all the difference, looking back now, I really wouldn't have it any other way.  

love is a river I wanna keep flowing,

we're on the top of the world;

cabin no. 1!

It wasn't a mistake after all. Thank you :)