who knows where we're headed,

Lately I've been having so many random conversations with people all over the place, and it's a really nice feeling to understand and be understood. And I've been sitting around in the canteen with a lot of people these days, half the time we end up laughing so hard it's just pure craziness. 

Hmm I've been thinking about everything I've gone through so far, the people I've met, the experiences and I daresay it's all been great. But well, the school totally had to remind us today that we're taking the As soon. Nice way to give us a reality check. But even though the rest of our lives might seem like they depend on our JC grades (and there's definitely a bit of truth in it. well, more than a bit.), it's not like we can't have fun while we're at it. 

The pressure's on, and I'm as ready as I'll ever be. 

And I'll never know if I never try;

Old man, hospital bed, 
The room is filled with people he loves. 
And he whispers don't cry for me, 
I'll see you all someday. 
He looks up and says, "I can see God's face." 

feelings change. memories don't.

In the last three months or so, I've watched people change into versions of themselves I can barely recognise. I don't know whether I've changed, and I don't want to know, because sometimes people notice the tiniest things and they judge you. The truth is, I'm scared out of my wits.

Sometimes it leaves me to wonder why things never turn out the way we want them to. And just when you think people are so predictable, they surprise you yet again.

Hmm we seem to have a never-ending supply of homework, and I'm a little mortified by the amount of stuff we have to hand up on monday. Actually not just a little. Sigh but the holidays have been fun while they lasted. And I feel really blessed that I know such wonderful people that never fail to make me smile. Interact people have been awesome to hang around with, though half the things we talk about don't ever make sense. And that's the best part. <3

I miss rgsrcy. Unit bondings haven't changed. The juniors haven't changed. And it seems quite comforting, in a way. Like how things haven't changed much since we left. Like maybe the world did stop for us after all. I think I need a bit more of such normalcy in my life, my brain can't catch up with times fast enough.

How long more I can hold on till I cave in?

the smallest things take up the most room in your heart.

"There are a million different opinions from a million different people, I get it that not everyone is going to like what you do, and I get that no matter what, you're going to be criticized for something." - Taylor Swift. 
Just shut it all out and walk on. 

This week-long break has been pretty great so far. Well, for starters, I have been catching up on all the sleep I missed out on the past month. (Though it's kinda ironic that it's almost 1.30 now.) And my to-do list has been diminishing slowly but surely, turns out holding myself hostage at home is doing me good. Will be going out tomorrow and friday though, so the productiveness stops here for now. 

So, with JC life in full swing now, I must say things really are terribly different from rg, and it wouldn't be fair to compare them. But one thing's for sure, I have no idea what I was thinking when I thought life was complicated back then! As much as I yearn for that kind of simplicity and stability back in my life, I'm enjoying myself so much being so busy and happening. Well, but having so much stuff on your hands is one thing, committing to them is another issue altogether. I'm having second thoughts on taking up guitar. For one, it's very individualistic, not that it's a bad thing, mind you. But to me, everyone's just trying to learn to play the guitar as fast as they possibly can, and frankly, I don't see much beyond that. I really don't think I'm cut out for this. Maybe things will change soon enough and I'm just worrying over nothing. 

On a sidenote, I love raffles interact so much it's amazing! (When you contrast this to what I said about guitar, the difference is horrifying.) But seriously, I love how everyone has a place and how I'm meeting new friends everyday. This is truly awesome in every sense of the word! <3

Drama Fest last Saturday was really good, the actors were terribly talented, the plots were stunningly crafted and I was so amazed by the pure genius of every single play. I'm still recovering from the shock at how near-flawless everything was, seriously. And MR WON (though frankly I did think every single house was absolutely brilliant).

Chen Su Lan service on Monday was really great, mainly because the kids are so cute in their own queer ways. But kids have the weirdest ways of putting two and two together and making terribly wrong assumptions about people hahaha. Can't wait for more stuff to come!   

The little insecurities that you contain inside never really go away no matter how hard you convince yourself they do.


  

believers never die.

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more 

Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1EVd_zghQXA 

Life is so happening. Yet so tiring. But I'm generally really happy these days, except for a few terribly scary moments. I better go sleep now, have got Interact Camp from tomorrow till Sunday. I sure hope it'll be fun.