Although the past month wasn't the most perfect, this is definitely as close to perfect as it gets. So blessed for the months I got here so far, and if everything goes according to plan, I might have three more. I never thought I'd stick around for so long, kinda expected myself to not like school as much as I do now, but now looking back, I'm sooo glad I made the right decision. Might have been more stressed than I'm allowing myself to be (still in the post-As holiday mood that I'm probably never gonna get out of) and sometimes I end up forgetting that this is not something I'm doing long-term. Makes me sad, really, that I'll be gone in a few months and will end up nothing but a mere memory. But honestly grateful for the bestest kids/students/friends (terms can be used interchangeably HAHAHA), I'm really getting to know them more and more each day. Times like these I wonder if I should do away with the humane, friendly part of teaching because the more I do this, the more painful it is gonna be to leave. Oh well just gonna go with the flow and enjoy the rest of the time I have left. Note to self: don't make too many promises I know I can't keep.
Anyway, the past two days of interning at alexandra hospital have made me miss school so much more. It wouldn't be fair to compare the two though, especially because in one place, I see old miserable people (okay not fair to generalise, they're not all miserable) cooped up in a place they have no desire of being in, and in another, I see students openly disliking education but secretly loving it. But if there's one thing that links both doctors and teachers together, it's definitely how emotionally draining their jobs are. I personally think teachers can choose to distance themselves from the emotionally demanding part of their job, or even cut themselves off totally from it. It's more of a choice for them. I know for certain though that the best teachers feel for their students, even feel with them, and in doing that, emotions must come into play. OKAY I'm not making any more sense so I shall stop here hahahaha.
"In your hesitation, I found my answer." Sometimes silence speaks louder than words.
