The Dark Alley, by Verna

You were framed up in that dark alley,
The alley, where all alleys converge,
The alley of
Her heart.


You cast that glow, that sliver of light, and it
Went cascading down
And down.


The light that sneaked into her morning routine,
The light that snatched her frowns and replaced them with smiles,
The light that was brighter than a hundred light bulbs put together.
That light.
Was you.


But out went the light,
Out went her smiles,
And out went her heart.
That alley was never this dark.


You are still framed up in that dark alley,
Collecting dust.
She did not throw out the frame,
It's still there.
You're still there
In the alley of
Her heart.


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Just a poem I wrote. Haven't written one in ages, but I suddenly felt like writing one. I know it's not very good, but maybe, just maybe, I haven't lost it yet heh. And now I shall go back to studying Mitosis and Meiosis.

The girl who felt too much and said too little.

12 more days to promos. Revision was progressing really well during the hols until WHAM the hols were over and school came back with a resounding bang, driving us back to reality again. School has a way of doing that and it's sometimes quite frustrating, really. 

But I'm so glad I managed to finish chem and math revision during the hols. My brain is still in knots from all the differentiating and integrating, seriously. Bio is taking too much time, it'll probably take up the whole of this week. Which leaves econs and gp to next week. But you know what, nothing ever goes according to plan. Just saying. Gahh I really hate myself when I'm being so pessimistic. Am desperately trying to find a bright side now, but I can't seem to be able to find it. Just when I really need a bright side too. )):

HELLO MR BRGHT SIDE WHERE ARE YOUUUU.

as if it's ever that easy to ):

highways and dead ends

It's been a short ten weeks, and everything seems to be falling in and out of place repeatedly. But I'm not going to let myself fall apart, even if I may be splitting at the seams already. Besides, I can't, since the whole world would be looking on, if you know what I mean. I have a hell lot of things weighing heavily on my mind now, and right now, I just feel like dumping my brain into the ocean. Okay fine, not the wisest thing to do, since I would be needing my brain for Promos.

I really need to stop missing stuff and get on with life. It's just a pathetic excuse to stay put because I don't have the courage to face anything. If it was a great big fire-breathing dragon that I had to face, I really wouldn't mind. But sometimes, things are just more complicated than a fire-breathing dragon. Like, seriously.

Anyway, people have been leaving confused. More confused than I have been in a long time. And I'm wondering what I did wrong, and whether I can ever put it right again. But I promise you, if I could, I really would.

So there goes my life,
Passing by with every exit sign.
It's been so long,
Sometimes I wonder how I will stay strong.
No sleep tonight,
I'll keep on driving these dark highway lines.
And as the moon fades,
One moment gone, only twenty more days.
- Hello, I'm In Delaware, City and Colour


I really love this song, kinda describes what I'm feeling. And Dallas Green's voice is really great :))


Okay, chem calls, I can hear my periodic table screaming at me to come back.

escalating downwards,

I'm really not strong at all. And it shows. It's not even a subtle thing, it's a right-smack-in-your-face thing. Like a balloon. Soaring higher and higher up in the sky. Until a sharp tree branch gets in its way. It pops, and sinks back down to earth, never to float up again, never able to reach the clouds, never able to realise its dreams.

I love my yearmates. I really do. They are the ones who have kept me sane for four years, and probably another two more. They are more than just friends, really, they are the life of me. Maybe living on craziness isn't a very good idea, but I love them so very much <3

I'm five years old, It's getting cold, I've got my big coat on
I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you, I run and run
Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides, look now the sky is gold
I hug your legs and fall asleep on the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall
I know you're not scared of anything at all ('His strength is making me stronger')
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today.


I really want to jump into piles of golden leaves and skip through bright orange pumpkin fields without a care in the world. But I guess ignorance never gets anyone anywhere. Hmm, but do I really want to get somewhere?

I found all that I could ever want, wrapped in something I could never have.

I think I need to get my brain to accept the fact that promos are in 6 weeks. Oh, joy. ): And I really need to do well, which means I've got to get down to studying pronto. 

I wonder what makes people so sure of themselves. I probably need that. 

I've been tellin' my dreams to the scarecrow

'Bout the places that I'd like to see

I said, friend do you think I'll ever get there

Ah, but he just stands there smilin' back at me

- Born to Fly, Sara Evans

this is a very happy picture :))

Kk gonna continue doing math now. DISCIPLINEEEE

you're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul.

'I sometimes find, and I am sure you know the feeling, that I simply have too many thoughts and memories crammed into my mind. At these times, I use the Pensieve.  One simply siphons the excess thoughts from one's mind, pours them into the basin, and examines them at one's leisure.' - Dumbledore

Hmm I think I really need a Pensieve. If only it did exist. All the thoughts zooming around in my head really need to be let out.

I'm really glad this past week is over. Tiring is, as usual, an understatement. But but I had so much fun this week, and I really wouldn't trade the memories for anything else. Like dancing with all the crazy csl people in front of the second-floor mirrors on monday. (Yes, mirrors.) Hehe that was about the most embarrassing thing ever but still it was so much fun. Although I guess I really don't have any dancing genes in me ohman.

And watching the teller and the tale with lingzhi the birthday gal on thursday. Going to acjc really just brought back all the memories with becky and there's something about the acjc campus that's really calming. And the show was really great, I'm so thankful to becky for introducing me to drama and I'm definitely gonna make plans to watch more shows by acsian theatre.

And after ISLE concert last night I guess it really hit me that I do love ISLE very much and my entire team too. Maybe I had a ton of misgivings at first, but right now, I'm feeling so glad for ISLE. I really can't wait for more to come. you never know how many hearts you touch~~

Have got a ton of work to finish but I'm a happy kid right now and nothing, not even work, can spoil this moment. All the lectures this week have been so taxing on the brain cells, hmm gosh they don't regenerate so I hope I haven't been losing too many. I still need them for all the exams coming up. SO INTENSEEEEE.

aww :)

13,

just stop for a minute and smile.

I'm finally back here again. So, the holidays have ended, school has started again, life has gone on. For the first time ever, I can't say I'm enjoying rj very much. Whatever happened to the days when I actually loved school, loved my friends, loved (almost) everything in my life. Don't get me wrong, I still love school very much, and I'm truly thankful for every opportunity that I have, but oh my goodness why is it that there are so many things that get on my nerves these days.


RJ is so much more materialistic, I swear. Everything revolves around numbers and numbers. If touching one person's life is a good thing, then touching one hundred lives must be a really great thing. I don't think it works that way, though. And if all the numbers and certs and diplomas don't already give some a major headache, others have to make it worse by rambling on and on about it. Hmm I think what sets some people apart from the masses (and I really respect such people) is the way they are able to see beyond all these tangible things in life to the not so tangible. And these people are just so genuine, so admirable, that they are so hard to come by.


To tell the truth, the next few weeks are gonna be pretty daunting. But I'm just gonna keep believing. And staying true to all my true friends. :D OKAY I'M GONNA FIND SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO EVERYDAY.

two is better than one :)